Two years into being a mommy to my best buddy in the world my son Jaden. Papa Bear & I are expecting once again.Ā
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Wow! I canāt even believe this is happening. So many emotions. Is this real? Can I handle two kids? Iām still learning with Jaden & now weāre throwing in another whole child… just wow.Ā
The journey has beenĀ tough but magical at the same time. The beginning was very rough. Finding out I was pregnant again happened with my big sister Geraldine via FaceTime. I told her āmy period hasnāt shown up yet & I have a test upstairs but itās oldā … āGo and get it and go buy another one so we can double checkā She said. āOKā (20/30 min later) CONFIRMED! I am indeed pregnant. My sister was so excited and I kept on saying āoh my gosh, what do I do. Should I tell papa bear now or later.ā Eventually I told him with giggles which he didnāt find funny at all but me laughing was the only way I could cope and tell him. His own emotions were all over the place. Initially he wasnāt in the best mood because he said āare we ready again?ā And all I could say was āI donāt knowā!Ā
Needless to say the next few weeks were very intense and confusing for both of us. I donāt believe in abortions but it was also so early that the fetus is barelyĀ formed. I went to the doctor to know my options and again abortion was brought up but also time had gone by going from when I found out to āyouāre six weeks inā after a lot of prayer and faith – WE DEFINITELY MADE THE RIGHT DECISION. We are having the baby because God makes no mistakes.Ā
(Fast forward) all is well, baby girl is growing, emotions are up and down. My first trimester was a hot mess just like with Jaden. Sick like a dog, a lot of crying – not being able to brush my teeth without gagging and just praying I make to the second trimester where I can finally be happy and eat my life away. FINALLY … I get there.Ā
Trimester two. Bring out the credit card. Baby shopping, ordering this and that. āOh this is cute and this and thisā such a difference shopping for boys and girls. I love all the shorts and polos for my son but seeing the mini swimwear and dresses after paying attention to them got me looking forward to finally meeting this baby girl. I never paid attention to anything girl ever but now my eyes are literally moving at a 50-50 pace because Iām thinking āwhat can I get for her and what can I get for Jadenā itās actually fun but itās also breaking our wallets more š
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Now, since I know thereās an new baby on the way, the biggest task is getting Jaden to understand what is going on. As my bump gets bigger I also try to tell him ābaby babyā ākiss babyā ābaby sisterā some days heāll kiss the belly and some days heāll smack the belly. I donāt know if he gets it but heās been more clingy than ever and heās noticed little baby toys around the house all of sudden. He knows heās too big for the toys because heās advanced. They are still appealing for him but when he tries to throw the ācrawling ballā and I say no no! Heās confused in why is mommy telling me to roll this ball and not throw it. Children are very smart. I just know his vibes feel that something is coming.Ā
As a mom to be of two my goal is to split myself in half! I donāt even know how Iāll deal with it and of course Iāll blog about this experience when baby girl arrives. I just want to be amazing to both of them but Jaden is my best friend, my go to, my play buddy – how am I suppose to do this with two kids. Iāve asked motherās of two and they said they felt the same way but once the second arrives everything just fell into perfect place and everyone isĀ happy so I pray itās the same for me. Iāll be so devastated if my little guy feels a certain way about his baby sister or if he feels neglected. I already know when sheās born – heās taking a full week off school to see her every second and I can spend time with them both. Luckily newborns donāt do much but feed & sleep but even then I need Jaden to see that sheās here to stay. Iāve seen him with other babies and heās done great so I donāt doubt heāll love his sister and theyāll be best buddies forever especially as she gets older. Jokingly Iām prepared for his slaps because when he sees her on my breasts which once belonged just to him, he might put up a fight šĀ besides the general talks of whatās on the way, Iāve also tried to get him to understand with pictures and stories. I ordered him a personalized big brother book which hopefully will help also. His name and face are in it and it describes all the responsibility a big brother has! I love online. You can find everything. Heās had personalized books in the past and he learned very fast from them.Ā
The final countdown has begun. Less than a month to go and my big boy toddler love of my life Jaden will no longer be a single child. Heās had a great time. Heās always going to be my best buddy and I believe this is such a great experience not just for him but for papa bear and I. Our family is expanding. Weāve been married for one year & I see the future being bright.
I thank God for everything & I pray I get continued strength to keep being a better mom to my children. It really takes a village to raise a child and Iām thankful for the advice and help Iāve got along the way but Iām very proud of myself because I went from knowing nothing to mothering two & seeing how well my son is growing and learning before my eyes, Iāve been doing something right.Ā
Cheers to the next chapter š„Ā